Hi
Our TV station has just given us Oprah this week, at midday everyday she is on so while having my lunch I watch it. Well I can say that she is so amazing, it has been years since I watched her and she really does some amazing stuff. Yesterday I was either crying or choked up during my lunch, pretty hard to eat and cry but believe me I managed to do it!! lol. she did a pay it forward challenge where 1 day last year everyone in her audience got $1000 on a credit card and they could get rid of it any way they wanted as long as it was helping other people. What some of these women did was amazing, 1 women in her home town raised $72,000 plus got a truck load of goods and groceries plus scholarship for 1 of the 6 kids plus so much more all from $1000 to start with, this family had a Father with a brain tumour so he was no longer able to work and the Mother had her hands full with all the kids so the hospital bills, mortgage everything was taken care of for a family who never asked for anything from anybody. Amazing and inspiring stuff. I think we lack having an Oprah in Australia, I know most communties step up when one of their own is in need but I think she is an amazing leader in what can often be such trying times.
I had weigh in last night, goodbye to 1.2 kilos more so thats 4.8 in total. I must admit I have been naughty since then so I have to put some more effort into my lunch times ATM, I am lacking in eating good enough to be satisfied to make it through the afternoon without looking for the wrong things. Then the issue of exercise is looming too, just need to get it happening!!! Stop promising each week it will happen. Oh procrastination is very powerful thing!!!
Kidlets still have snots!! Oh just sooooo dont want to be going down that road again through winter, started the 3 little ones on incremin today just to kick start their appetite again and give them a boost, they are so bad at eating their tea at night. Incremin is always great for making them start eating again!! Still not creating but thinking about it. Trin went for a play today with a new friend but holy cow they came home high as kites, Darcy's Mum had them decorating milk arrowroots and muffins and far out they were high on sugar, I made sure I shovelled as much roast lamb into her for tea tonight to try and kill the sting of the sugar. Pre primary makes them so tired, she is just an emotional mess by night time, crying at the drop of a hat and making all the problems of the day seem so huge, I just give her heaps of love and support and thank goodness day light saving is nearly over and they will be getting back to bed a 7.30pm, otherwise they just can't cope and neither can us parents. lol.
My girlfriend is arriving tomorrow, can't wait, getting to go and have Friday night with her at the motel and have drinks and just have a girls night I can't wait. I think I need a good alcoholic wash out to revive me ATM. Off now to watch the old idiot box.
Take care
Trace.
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Monday, February 26, 2007
All sick!!
Hi
Today the kidlets all stayed home, we are all pretty much sick with something, Tim has had stomach upset most of the night, Rainee is not the best in the tummy, Zay is still fighting his cold and keeps hitting his head, would hate to see a skull X-ray. Trin is just tired after fighting with a cold for weeks and Keelan and I are getting the cold and I have the dizzy head and hot and cold flushes, Zay slept till 8.45am this morning, unheard of for my 6am rising Son. The rest of us just vegged in bed till then as once he is up action usually starts. We have had another big weekend and late night last night having tea and celebrating with MIL for her 70th Birthday so I would rather the kids rest and go fresh for the rest of the week.
The humidity is so stiffling, we had a storm and rain today but it just stayed humid, I love the storms that bring the cool changes but not so today, the weather is just horrid ATM. I think I need to go and live where it is winter most of the time. Love Spring but not into anything over 30 degrees at all.
Nothing else much exciting happening, count down to Scrapboxx retreat sooo needing that weekend away, hope my happy positive self will return and also my mojo. My visitor for this week is still coming and that will be fun, but more about her later. Will go now and get some sleep, hope tomorrow will be better.
Take care
Trace.
Today the kidlets all stayed home, we are all pretty much sick with something, Tim has had stomach upset most of the night, Rainee is not the best in the tummy, Zay is still fighting his cold and keeps hitting his head, would hate to see a skull X-ray. Trin is just tired after fighting with a cold for weeks and Keelan and I are getting the cold and I have the dizzy head and hot and cold flushes, Zay slept till 8.45am this morning, unheard of for my 6am rising Son. The rest of us just vegged in bed till then as once he is up action usually starts. We have had another big weekend and late night last night having tea and celebrating with MIL for her 70th Birthday so I would rather the kids rest and go fresh for the rest of the week.
The humidity is so stiffling, we had a storm and rain today but it just stayed humid, I love the storms that bring the cool changes but not so today, the weather is just horrid ATM. I think I need to go and live where it is winter most of the time. Love Spring but not into anything over 30 degrees at all.
Nothing else much exciting happening, count down to Scrapboxx retreat sooo needing that weekend away, hope my happy positive self will return and also my mojo. My visitor for this week is still coming and that will be fun, but more about her later. Will go now and get some sleep, hope tomorrow will be better.
Take care
Trace.
Friday, February 23, 2007
Update on Trin and Ex husbands grrrrrr!!!!
Hi
First up had my meeting with Trin's teacher on Thursday and found out a lot of interesting stuff, turns out my Trin has been getting jumped on a lot by teacher to pull her into line straight away but also Trin does not talk to the teacher or Aide, they said she has not even spoken to them much since the start of school. Wow she is a real chatterbox normally. Only when she is jacked off about stuff is she quiet. Anyway she really does not know how to handle Trin who she says is displaying very anti social behaviour, quite strange she says she is, drrr hello any child being picked on by other children all the time will display strange behaviour. So I filled her in on our home life and what number child she is and how distressed I am over all this as Trin is complex but she is certainly not what she is displaying ATM. But I have to give her credit for taking notes and trying to find solutions to this problem and she now feels I have given her a big insight into Trin and that she can see she is seeking attention from the attention seekers and reacting badly like them. She is going to subtly try and steer her to the" nicer children" in class and see if she can break this cycle with her. She said she is really switched on with her work and can do that without a problem, I also told her Trin is bored which can mark bad behaviour, she missed out by 16 days being in Year 1 and I think she is so over this kindy, Pre primary sort of structure, she really wants desks and work and to be challenged. So we will keep an eye on this and I am spending lots of time with her which of course throws Rainee off track as she sees her Sister getting more of my attention than usual but all this is just sent to challenge me on a daily basis.
So today I have an issue with the EX seems he will never be able to talk to me in a nice manner anymore only F##K you and this and that. Tomorrow Keelan has Go karts here so tonight I have had to drive him 1hour and 15mins away just for him to get in a car and get driven all that again to come back for Karts in the morning then go back late tomorrow night 1 hour 15mins and then come back when I pick him up Sunday 1 hour 15mins again. So I ring and plead to his nicer nature of which he doesnt have one to just come here early tomorrow morning and let him have a good sleep in his own bed, not on the floor of his cousins house in the lounge on a mattress and then pick him up in the morning and take him somewhere nice for breaky bright and early and spend time with him before karts but hey what do women know, according to him I was doing this to save me driving so then he turned it all into a personal attack threatening me, I just kept my cool as he really aint worth raising the blood pressure over I can assure you. So So glad I have such an amazing Husband now, funny enough he talks to the ex more than me. So I have driven 2 and half hours tonight to do THE RIGHT THING as I always do but I do know Keelan is starting to see how his father operates and he is getting closer to an age he can start telling him what he does and doesnt want so I will just wait till that day.
I just really dont know why life has to be so hard, like you just seem to rise above one problem and the next is knocking on the door ready to take you down. I just think some days how lovely those free and easy years of 17 to 21 years of age were. Thank God I had some amazing times then, gives me hope that 1 day I will stop being haunted by all the bad decisions I have made in my life since then.
So in a nutshell Trin will stay where she is and we are keeping a close eye on things. Zaylan is still sick and not his happy self but I think he is on the up. Tim is Tim, he never really changes, just deals with what gets thrown his way. I am on the up, I was actually able to get cleaning done today without walking around in circles not knowing where to start as the mind has been stirring around some really murky water just late with worry and stuff. The boys are karting so Mum and Dad and Brother are coming for the weekend so that will be good, Mum is having the young ones tomorrow arvo for me while I go to an ATC workshop so I hope I will be inspired to create this week. So next time I am back expect bright post as it has been pretty heavy and dark these last few posts. Time to let go of it, get over it and get on with it!!! So I promise that is what I am going to do. You know what it is like but we bleed when our little ones bleed, we hurt when our little ones hurt and we dont rest until we find the answers to their problems. All in the day of a loving Mother.
Have a great weekend, take time to smell the roses and make sure your kidlets do too right next to you holding your hand!!
Take care
Trace.
First up had my meeting with Trin's teacher on Thursday and found out a lot of interesting stuff, turns out my Trin has been getting jumped on a lot by teacher to pull her into line straight away but also Trin does not talk to the teacher or Aide, they said she has not even spoken to them much since the start of school. Wow she is a real chatterbox normally. Only when she is jacked off about stuff is she quiet. Anyway she really does not know how to handle Trin who she says is displaying very anti social behaviour, quite strange she says she is, drrr hello any child being picked on by other children all the time will display strange behaviour. So I filled her in on our home life and what number child she is and how distressed I am over all this as Trin is complex but she is certainly not what she is displaying ATM. But I have to give her credit for taking notes and trying to find solutions to this problem and she now feels I have given her a big insight into Trin and that she can see she is seeking attention from the attention seekers and reacting badly like them. She is going to subtly try and steer her to the" nicer children" in class and see if she can break this cycle with her. She said she is really switched on with her work and can do that without a problem, I also told her Trin is bored which can mark bad behaviour, she missed out by 16 days being in Year 1 and I think she is so over this kindy, Pre primary sort of structure, she really wants desks and work and to be challenged. So we will keep an eye on this and I am spending lots of time with her which of course throws Rainee off track as she sees her Sister getting more of my attention than usual but all this is just sent to challenge me on a daily basis.
So today I have an issue with the EX seems he will never be able to talk to me in a nice manner anymore only F##K you and this and that. Tomorrow Keelan has Go karts here so tonight I have had to drive him 1hour and 15mins away just for him to get in a car and get driven all that again to come back for Karts in the morning then go back late tomorrow night 1 hour 15mins and then come back when I pick him up Sunday 1 hour 15mins again. So I ring and plead to his nicer nature of which he doesnt have one to just come here early tomorrow morning and let him have a good sleep in his own bed, not on the floor of his cousins house in the lounge on a mattress and then pick him up in the morning and take him somewhere nice for breaky bright and early and spend time with him before karts but hey what do women know, according to him I was doing this to save me driving so then he turned it all into a personal attack threatening me, I just kept my cool as he really aint worth raising the blood pressure over I can assure you. So So glad I have such an amazing Husband now, funny enough he talks to the ex more than me. So I have driven 2 and half hours tonight to do THE RIGHT THING as I always do but I do know Keelan is starting to see how his father operates and he is getting closer to an age he can start telling him what he does and doesnt want so I will just wait till that day.
I just really dont know why life has to be so hard, like you just seem to rise above one problem and the next is knocking on the door ready to take you down. I just think some days how lovely those free and easy years of 17 to 21 years of age were. Thank God I had some amazing times then, gives me hope that 1 day I will stop being haunted by all the bad decisions I have made in my life since then.
So in a nutshell Trin will stay where she is and we are keeping a close eye on things. Zaylan is still sick and not his happy self but I think he is on the up. Tim is Tim, he never really changes, just deals with what gets thrown his way. I am on the up, I was actually able to get cleaning done today without walking around in circles not knowing where to start as the mind has been stirring around some really murky water just late with worry and stuff. The boys are karting so Mum and Dad and Brother are coming for the weekend so that will be good, Mum is having the young ones tomorrow arvo for me while I go to an ATC workshop so I hope I will be inspired to create this week. So next time I am back expect bright post as it has been pretty heavy and dark these last few posts. Time to let go of it, get over it and get on with it!!! So I promise that is what I am going to do. You know what it is like but we bleed when our little ones bleed, we hurt when our little ones hurt and we dont rest until we find the answers to their problems. All in the day of a loving Mother.
Have a great weekend, take time to smell the roses and make sure your kidlets do too right next to you holding your hand!!
Take care
Trace.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Update on saga!!
Hi
Things are still going up and down here, I picked Trin up today and she handed me a note about making an appointment to see the teacher but most parents got them just to review how they are progressing and settling in, I wanted to ask her about things anyway, so I asked her if I could chat to her for a minute about Trin and was she having any major problems and she said "yes and I need to see you so make an appointment to see me after school as early as possible" I said I would have to come with the other kids and she said "fine can you make it tomorrow" Okay it is not looking good and judging by her attitude towards me I was reaching for a cardigan in 30 odd degree heat so it is pretty icy what is coming off her. So I will know exactly what is going on tomorrow but a friend rang today and she had a chat about it all with me and said I should move schools as this has been brewing with Trin from last year and the school her kids are at is just wonderful and Trin adores Cassie so she would get to see her everyday if not in the same class they will at least have play together. So tomorrow I will make my decision, Tim of course thinks the move is great as the fees are cheaper but the other school seems to be teaching the kids to respect each other from Kindy on which is more than I can say for this school, they seem to have a very shallow plan in place with lots of holes in it.
Other news, Zay is still miserable with a cold, the rest of the Family is going fine and I lost another 1.5kg woo hoo, so 3.6kg in 2 weeks, very happy with that one at this rate I will be back into my nice clothes by the retreat and then just keep chipping away at it until I am back to mini me!!! Feeling happier now I am having good results and enjoying the plan no end. Tonight we had chicken curry and cous cous. The kids really didnt want eat too much but it was yummy, a tad bit too much curry powder in theirs. My mojo is still missing ATM I dont really even know when I want to begin to do something, I will just have to keep the brain box ticking over till the light bulb turns back on!!
Best news ever I am getting a special visit from a wonderful inspirational girlfriend next week, will reveal more next week. Can't wait!!! Going to an ATC workshop on Saturday so that will be good just to hopefully learn some new stuff. Well wish me luck tomorrow, I so feel like I am at school again dealing with these issues, oh for a lovely bright young teacher with some enthusiasm to teach kids, Trin would do so much better.
Take care
Trace.
Things are still going up and down here, I picked Trin up today and she handed me a note about making an appointment to see the teacher but most parents got them just to review how they are progressing and settling in, I wanted to ask her about things anyway, so I asked her if I could chat to her for a minute about Trin and was she having any major problems and she said "yes and I need to see you so make an appointment to see me after school as early as possible" I said I would have to come with the other kids and she said "fine can you make it tomorrow" Okay it is not looking good and judging by her attitude towards me I was reaching for a cardigan in 30 odd degree heat so it is pretty icy what is coming off her. So I will know exactly what is going on tomorrow but a friend rang today and she had a chat about it all with me and said I should move schools as this has been brewing with Trin from last year and the school her kids are at is just wonderful and Trin adores Cassie so she would get to see her everyday if not in the same class they will at least have play together. So tomorrow I will make my decision, Tim of course thinks the move is great as the fees are cheaper but the other school seems to be teaching the kids to respect each other from Kindy on which is more than I can say for this school, they seem to have a very shallow plan in place with lots of holes in it.
Other news, Zay is still miserable with a cold, the rest of the Family is going fine and I lost another 1.5kg woo hoo, so 3.6kg in 2 weeks, very happy with that one at this rate I will be back into my nice clothes by the retreat and then just keep chipping away at it until I am back to mini me!!! Feeling happier now I am having good results and enjoying the plan no end. Tonight we had chicken curry and cous cous. The kids really didnt want eat too much but it was yummy, a tad bit too much curry powder in theirs. My mojo is still missing ATM I dont really even know when I want to begin to do something, I will just have to keep the brain box ticking over till the light bulb turns back on!!
Best news ever I am getting a special visit from a wonderful inspirational girlfriend next week, will reveal more next week. Can't wait!!! Going to an ATC workshop on Saturday so that will be good just to hopefully learn some new stuff. Well wish me luck tomorrow, I so feel like I am at school again dealing with these issues, oh for a lovely bright young teacher with some enthusiasm to teach kids, Trin would do so much better.
Take care
Trace.
Monday, February 19, 2007
Pics to share
Hi
Some photos of our outing yesterday, everyone chowing down on the yummy ice creams, they are sooooo big that the kids have plenty of drips and Tim ends up eating a lot more than just his. I had a wilderberry yoghurt one and it was divine. Simmos is the best ice cream, lucky we dont live in Dunsborough or I would be the size of a house!!!
I took the kids to school this morning and we spent time in Trin's room doing puzzles and they enjoyed that, left Trin a lot happier however when I picked her up she said she had been naughty and doesnt want to go to school tomorrow because she has to go to the vice Principal's office, oh boy we get 1 thing sorted and another begins, I was a bit pithed (to be nice) the teacher could not tell me about this as I was waiting for Trin so I was available for her to talk to. Apparently she drew a circle around her picture and she was not meant to do that is about the best explanation I can get from her, but she has scratch marks on her arm from this other girl and according to Trin she has been given a 2 week holiday, sent home through the day, so I will have to find out more.
As for Rainee, I picked her up and she has skin off her chin and knee, she took a tumble today but she doesnt really complain, I saw it 1st otherwise she probably would not have mentioned it. If only Trin could lighten up a bit like Rainee. Zay has a cold ATM so he is feeling flat and miserable, oh joy the snots starting already!!! But to brighten up my Day I got a lovely pressie from my Adorable Elaine today, Thankyou darl you made my Day!!!xxooxx. I will show you what I create for sure!! I have tried to make it a better day and be positive I just wont count slipping on water in thongs this arvo and bruising my knee and diving my big toe through the tiles lucky no one witnessed my graceful splits. The girls were quick to point out Zay spilt the water, funny how they cant bend down and clean it up but leave it for poor old Mother to break her knee on. lol. I am up early to cook pancakes in the morn for shrine Tuesday, that will be a challenge. Wish me luck. lol. Take it easy.
Take care
Trace.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Huge head overload!!!
Hi
Had our appointment with Trin today, I have got a huge head full of stuff and now I need some panadol but I keep forgetting to take it. lol. Trin made good headway with it and we have come away loaded with stuff to do to try and make this problem better. No.1 is to get Trin and me Happy again, so lots to work on there. She is picking up a lot of my crap and it is making her really unhappy. We are both on bush flower essences and I have a lot of reading to comb through and I have to make time to have a lot more fun with the kids after school. She is already a lot happier tonight and has actually sat next to me and hugged me for ages so some of that brick wall is coming down. I on the other hand have a massive amount of stress building up, I can feel the stiff neck coming on again if I dont release some of it. I so hold onto my shit!!! Naughty naughty girl!!lol.
After the appointment we went to Simmos yummo, goodbye diet today and then we went for a lovely drive and then all fell asleep on the way home and left poor Tim talking to himself. Oh well these things happen it has been a pretty exhausting day all round.
Time to go and watch some T.V. and veg out. Got some lovely ice cream face pics to post, will do that tomorrow.
Take care
Trace.
Had our appointment with Trin today, I have got a huge head full of stuff and now I need some panadol but I keep forgetting to take it. lol. Trin made good headway with it and we have come away loaded with stuff to do to try and make this problem better. No.1 is to get Trin and me Happy again, so lots to work on there. She is picking up a lot of my crap and it is making her really unhappy. We are both on bush flower essences and I have a lot of reading to comb through and I have to make time to have a lot more fun with the kids after school. She is already a lot happier tonight and has actually sat next to me and hugged me for ages so some of that brick wall is coming down. I on the other hand have a massive amount of stress building up, I can feel the stiff neck coming on again if I dont release some of it. I so hold onto my shit!!! Naughty naughty girl!!lol.
After the appointment we went to Simmos yummo, goodbye diet today and then we went for a lovely drive and then all fell asleep on the way home and left poor Tim talking to himself. Oh well these things happen it has been a pretty exhausting day all round.
Time to go and watch some T.V. and veg out. Got some lovely ice cream face pics to post, will do that tomorrow.
Take care
Trace.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Perfect camera moment
Hi
Last Saturday at Go karts I got these shots just as we were about to go and round up the kids I turned around to see them sitting perfectly still talking on the log looking out to the paddock, I busted myself getting to the boot of the car and just got my camera out to take the first shot and then the second they turned around to catch me. I tell you I shake taking these shots as you have to be so quick and then so still to get the shot in a second, as you can see Mikayla was just about to make a move so I just missed the really perfect shot but never mind I am still really happy with these, they are just so cute having their own CWA meeting at 1 with nature. I just would have loved to have heard what they were talking about, hmmm needed to be the old fly on the pole!!!!
Things with Trin have come to light a little more, I did her hair on Friday up in a bun and put pretty clips in and sprayed some inpulse on her as she left the house just to see how the purple circle reacted to her and yes sadly enough they were her best buddy on Friday, I had to laugh though as she got in the car and said " well Mum it worked, they played with me today and kept saying Please Trinity can we have some of your perfume" how tragic is it we are breeding a generation of vain children. I pretty much thought we would face this at some stage having Daughters but like some Mums I spoke to yesterday said it is scary they are facing this at 5, they have older Daughters and at 11-12years old they are starting to go through it but they have not heard of it so young. So once we sort out tomorrows session with Trin and I know what is really happening with her then I will take it further with the school. I just dont want to go and cause upheaval until I am absolutely certain of where it is all coming from.
Keelan has a friend staying over for the weekend, last night has been extended to another night but that is fine, he is a great kid and they are so alike, it is good for Keelan to have someone to have some fun with and Shaun is the only child left at home with 2 older Sisters so he is welcoming the company. I am just so happy he has such a great mate.
I actually got out the house for coffee with some lovely Ladies yesterday, I just dont do it enough, I was the only 1 with Kids with me as the other Ladies kids were at school, but Rainee and Zay behaved so well that it was fine, I needed a lift yesterday and feel better for it.
Diet is going well, I am on a mission to get back into my nice clothes and out of the problem of taking 45 mins to get ready to go out as nothing much fits. Last Monday I lost 2.1kgs so I will see what happens this week, I am finding it easy to manage the points system and it is amazing how if you want a chocolate you will settle for a low point substitute rather than a big 1 that blows your points for the day. I have not had a big increase in energy yet but I think having such a low emotional week has not helped with that. I am proud of myself but for not blowing my diet while I have had this crap to deal with. Hope to scrap again this week and get back to some normality, hope I am not the only one struggling with routine and sorting myself out since the kids have gone back. I find I achieve more the days I have 2 home than Zay on his own. And I can see weekends are going to be a challenge to keep the house clean as the girls have had nearly everything out to play with today. Well off to have a rest for a while.
Take care
Trace.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
meltdown
Hi
Things have been very hectic here over the weekend and since. We had a good weekend although disappointing in some areas, wont go there!! We all felt pretty tired after the weekend, men racing Go karts, all doing very well, Keelan is going great guns and loving it which is great, he is certainly growing up fast now. Mum, Kim and I managed the kids and tried to get some creating happening in between, I managed to do MIL 70th Birthday card and a few others but no way I could think about scrapping.
Sunday I did not feel the happiest by arvo time and then Monday was very tired but Tuesday arvo had an incident that was not great and Wednesday just topped it off and had major meltdown so feeling better tonight but this morning was pretty washed out. Trin is just not having a very good run of things ATM and it is breaking my heart watching her going through a really tough time, as I mentioned before she is in a "bitchy" group of little girls and unfortunately the problem is getting worse to the point she is acting very out of character and it is changing the essence of her. We had the best holidays and she was no trouble at all and now 2 and half weeks into the term she is in major turmoil and who does she choose to vent it all out on but ME and with my own crap happening this week it has not been good.
I have called on my angels to help as this problem is bigger than I can gain clarity on ATM and today have had the most amazing door of opportunity open for me and HER so on Sunday I am taking her to see Maggie Dent who is the most amazing Lady with her talent to help Children and hopefully we can get something sorted. If from that I have to then start addressing this issue at the school or move her to another school then that is what I will do. I can not see my little girl suffer cruelty at the hands of these kids anymore or be victimised by them, she is having nightmares tonight, I just found her curled up in bed in the fetal position moaning No, please No, so enough is enough. She is playing with the Boys as she says they are not mean and cruel to herlike the girls who tell her she has yucky hair and is not pretty . Please these are 5 year olds and its a catholic school, certainly no christianity being handed around there!!!! The boys make her be their pets so she has to chase them being a tiger or dog, please can the teachers not see what is happening??? Or are they too busy telling us parents not to send the wrong sized pillow into school or dont give them things in the lunch box that God forbid they might have to help the child open. I have tried not to be reactive or be the over protective parent but honestly I dont think I could let it get any worse. I hope we get some clarity Sunday by her speaking to someone on neutral ground and then I can make my plan of attack.
So it is not all roses here ATM hence no scrapping happening until we get our ray of sunshine back over our heads again and then I may be able to get into it again. I spent time with them all this arvo doing a self esteem lifting project but she is really finding it hard to come out of her depths of misery to enjoy much at all. It has made the other kidlets be more supportive of her though and we are making a big effort to listen to each other and respect each others talk time more.
Well better get some sleep, not sure what tomorrow will bring, so glad my angels are helping me with this one, I so needed it. Will keep you posted on outcomes.
Take care
Trace.
Things have been very hectic here over the weekend and since. We had a good weekend although disappointing in some areas, wont go there!! We all felt pretty tired after the weekend, men racing Go karts, all doing very well, Keelan is going great guns and loving it which is great, he is certainly growing up fast now. Mum, Kim and I managed the kids and tried to get some creating happening in between, I managed to do MIL 70th Birthday card and a few others but no way I could think about scrapping.
Sunday I did not feel the happiest by arvo time and then Monday was very tired but Tuesday arvo had an incident that was not great and Wednesday just topped it off and had major meltdown so feeling better tonight but this morning was pretty washed out. Trin is just not having a very good run of things ATM and it is breaking my heart watching her going through a really tough time, as I mentioned before she is in a "bitchy" group of little girls and unfortunately the problem is getting worse to the point she is acting very out of character and it is changing the essence of her. We had the best holidays and she was no trouble at all and now 2 and half weeks into the term she is in major turmoil and who does she choose to vent it all out on but ME and with my own crap happening this week it has not been good.
I have called on my angels to help as this problem is bigger than I can gain clarity on ATM and today have had the most amazing door of opportunity open for me and HER so on Sunday I am taking her to see Maggie Dent who is the most amazing Lady with her talent to help Children and hopefully we can get something sorted. If from that I have to then start addressing this issue at the school or move her to another school then that is what I will do. I can not see my little girl suffer cruelty at the hands of these kids anymore or be victimised by them, she is having nightmares tonight, I just found her curled up in bed in the fetal position moaning No, please No, so enough is enough. She is playing with the Boys as she says they are not mean and cruel to herlike the girls who tell her she has yucky hair and is not pretty . Please these are 5 year olds and its a catholic school, certainly no christianity being handed around there!!!! The boys make her be their pets so she has to chase them being a tiger or dog, please can the teachers not see what is happening??? Or are they too busy telling us parents not to send the wrong sized pillow into school or dont give them things in the lunch box that God forbid they might have to help the child open. I have tried not to be reactive or be the over protective parent but honestly I dont think I could let it get any worse. I hope we get some clarity Sunday by her speaking to someone on neutral ground and then I can make my plan of attack.
So it is not all roses here ATM hence no scrapping happening until we get our ray of sunshine back over our heads again and then I may be able to get into it again. I spent time with them all this arvo doing a self esteem lifting project but she is really finding it hard to come out of her depths of misery to enjoy much at all. It has made the other kidlets be more supportive of her though and we are making a big effort to listen to each other and respect each others talk time more.
Well better get some sleep, not sure what tomorrow will bring, so glad my angels are helping me with this one, I so needed it. Will keep you posted on outcomes.
Take care
Trace.
Friday, February 09, 2007
Darn computer servicemen!!!
Hi
The computer repair man was actually a computer killer, he spent 3.5 hrs here and left when he crashed my computer, I had to then re extend the warranty as the bloody thing was less than 2 weeks out of warranty and then deal with hewlett packard to fix it up and have another guy come today from a different company and sort something out. The guy I talked about the other day fell in my office again, could not even walk down the other end of the house to my Sons room to sort his computer out and spent time on mine doing his office paperwork and printing out his future jobs on my printer and my paper. Then crashed it while he was friggin around supposedly sorting it out and then left me to get myself out of this mess stating it was probably the memory chip and the tower would have to go and be fixed but about an hour with hewlett packard giving me instructions and it is back to working order, how normal it will be I dont know till time tells. I tell you I always get ripped off by shonky computer people. Okay vent over.
Getting ready for Family and Go karts again on the weekend, the Boys and Man of the household are getting excited and the Lady folk will be creating!!! I have made a little box and valentines card for the men folk so Mum and Kim and maybe Gail will be playing with them. I have spent today getting cleaned up but the kidlets arrive home and go into demolish mode and it looks like I did nothing. I hate being a grumpy Mum and stressing at them but they just dont seem to get the message, I really dont know what to do anymore about getting them to be tidy, I wouldnt mind if they didnt trash it so bad it looked like I have done nothing all day, I virtually have to clean morning and afternoon to make it look respectable for Tim otherwise he like me goes insane with all the crap lying about. They get so caught up playing and going silly that they just dont care what they create in the meantime. I think I will have to start finding some after school activities like park and beach and let them run the sillies out elsewhere as I really want to get off this rollercoaster of bashing my head against the brick wall when they come home and have some fun with them.
I will hopefully be back next time with some nice pics of creations and not have the whinges.
Have a great weekend.
Take care
Trace.
The computer repair man was actually a computer killer, he spent 3.5 hrs here and left when he crashed my computer, I had to then re extend the warranty as the bloody thing was less than 2 weeks out of warranty and then deal with hewlett packard to fix it up and have another guy come today from a different company and sort something out. The guy I talked about the other day fell in my office again, could not even walk down the other end of the house to my Sons room to sort his computer out and spent time on mine doing his office paperwork and printing out his future jobs on my printer and my paper. Then crashed it while he was friggin around supposedly sorting it out and then left me to get myself out of this mess stating it was probably the memory chip and the tower would have to go and be fixed but about an hour with hewlett packard giving me instructions and it is back to working order, how normal it will be I dont know till time tells. I tell you I always get ripped off by shonky computer people. Okay vent over.
Getting ready for Family and Go karts again on the weekend, the Boys and Man of the household are getting excited and the Lady folk will be creating!!! I have made a little box and valentines card for the men folk so Mum and Kim and maybe Gail will be playing with them. I have spent today getting cleaned up but the kidlets arrive home and go into demolish mode and it looks like I did nothing. I hate being a grumpy Mum and stressing at them but they just dont seem to get the message, I really dont know what to do anymore about getting them to be tidy, I wouldnt mind if they didnt trash it so bad it looked like I have done nothing all day, I virtually have to clean morning and afternoon to make it look respectable for Tim otherwise he like me goes insane with all the crap lying about. They get so caught up playing and going silly that they just dont care what they create in the meantime. I think I will have to start finding some after school activities like park and beach and let them run the sillies out elsewhere as I really want to get off this rollercoaster of bashing my head against the brick wall when they come home and have some fun with them.
I will hopefully be back next time with some nice pics of creations and not have the whinges.
Have a great weekend.
Take care
Trace.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Staying on track
Hi,
Today has been busy, getting things into shape around here and staying on track with my new program. I am so proud of my Family, they are eating what I am having for tea and I really did not think they would come at the fish for tea and was stressing about what I could give them if they all had it and hated it, but suprise they all enjoyed it and apart from Trin who would have nothing to do with her fish they all did really well, we had Dhuie baked in the oven in alfoil with lemon juice, ginger, onion, soy sauce and some corriander with rice and steamed broccoli and carrots. They all looked a bit horrified at me dishing it up but Tim was pleasantly suprised it tasted so good, so I just thank and Love them so much for supporting me and helping make life easy for me that I dont have to cook them separate meals. I have not put 1 wrong thing in my mouth today and I am feeling really happy with myself woo hoo. Okay sorry for all that back patting but believe me I need it, I have to break out of this fat cyclone once and for all. My poor scrap blog is turning into a diet journal but I just need to find my feet with this and then it will hopefully flow, boy I have had more energy already today achieving so much more than usual. I think taking the first step and making yourself do it often lightens the burden 100%, suddenly you burst from a cloud of guilt and unhappiness and start to blossom again. So my Family in the City are also jumping on board according to my Mum today and that is so great. We will do it together.
Well I better get this office cleaned up, the computer man is coming tomorrow and he is a rather large chap and on a walking stick so I dont want him coming to any grief in here!! Best clean all the crap out the way and make his life easier and take the worry off me also, last time he tripped on the kiddie gate getting in here and I nearly laid an egg big time, you know when you feel everything drop inside and go hot and flushed, it was that scary, I would need the fire brigade boys to help get him back up. pheeww really nice man though but he is just not in the best of health. Okay better end that story I could go on about more funny stuff from his visit but I better leave it there. lol. I am off on that note to have my cup of tea and yoghurt for sweeties. all good!!!
Take care
Trace.
Today has been busy, getting things into shape around here and staying on track with my new program. I am so proud of my Family, they are eating what I am having for tea and I really did not think they would come at the fish for tea and was stressing about what I could give them if they all had it and hated it, but suprise they all enjoyed it and apart from Trin who would have nothing to do with her fish they all did really well, we had Dhuie baked in the oven in alfoil with lemon juice, ginger, onion, soy sauce and some corriander with rice and steamed broccoli and carrots. They all looked a bit horrified at me dishing it up but Tim was pleasantly suprised it tasted so good, so I just thank and Love them so much for supporting me and helping make life easy for me that I dont have to cook them separate meals. I have not put 1 wrong thing in my mouth today and I am feeling really happy with myself woo hoo. Okay sorry for all that back patting but believe me I need it, I have to break out of this fat cyclone once and for all. My poor scrap blog is turning into a diet journal but I just need to find my feet with this and then it will hopefully flow, boy I have had more energy already today achieving so much more than usual. I think taking the first step and making yourself do it often lightens the burden 100%, suddenly you burst from a cloud of guilt and unhappiness and start to blossom again. So my Family in the City are also jumping on board according to my Mum today and that is so great. We will do it together.
Well I better get this office cleaned up, the computer man is coming tomorrow and he is a rather large chap and on a walking stick so I dont want him coming to any grief in here!! Best clean all the crap out the way and make his life easier and take the worry off me also, last time he tripped on the kiddie gate getting in here and I nearly laid an egg big time, you know when you feel everything drop inside and go hot and flushed, it was that scary, I would need the fire brigade boys to help get him back up. pheeww really nice man though but he is just not in the best of health. Okay better end that story I could go on about more funny stuff from his visit but I better leave it there. lol. I am off on that note to have my cup of tea and yoghurt for sweeties. all good!!!
Take care
Trace.
Monday, February 05, 2007
Taken the plunge!
Hi,
Today I bit the bullet and went and joined Weight Watchers, its official now I have put it out there. I AM ON A DIET or should I say a lifestyle change. I will be the dreaded 40 in August and I made a promise to myself that I would not be this size however over the holidays I have managed to end up a bigger size lol. So off Zay and I went to the meeting this morning, I am pleased to say the scales do go up pretty high and that my little support man was just great for the meeting and waiting 25 mins for me to get through the sign up drama!! I also only have 5 weeks till Scrapboxx Retreat yahoo, I love retreats and I am so looking forward to getting away and spending time doing my great love of creating. So I will see how much I can loose in 5 weeks and hopefully some of my really nice clothes will fit me again to take away. So lots of incentive to get rid of the lard and on top of that my health, my poor joints and back and neck have had enough of supporting this lard, I was never this size even in my 4 pregnancies so Mum and I discussed last week supporting each other and joining even though we are doing it a long way from each other and I am sure Kim will jump on board too. So here is to us 3 getting some normal sized bodies!!!
I made tea from my plan tonight and it was yummy, the great thing is the family can pretty much eat and enjoy the meals as well, not like the last plan I tried, I had to cook 2 lots of bloody meals each night and that just gets too hard in the end.
I have had a meeting tonight for Kindy which is all stuff I know from last year with Trin but I did the right thing and heard about it all again. So funny to listen to the Parents and the questions they ask, I think some think they are sending them to the einstein school. Others seem to have issues about starving children and send masses of food in for them. lol. Other than that not much else happening. Busy creating ATC's for scrapbook designs swap and enjoying that and off to watch desperate housewives, back on yahoo, but cant wait for Mcleods and Greys anatomy. yummo. Catch you next time.
Take care
Trace.
Today I bit the bullet and went and joined Weight Watchers, its official now I have put it out there. I AM ON A DIET or should I say a lifestyle change. I will be the dreaded 40 in August and I made a promise to myself that I would not be this size however over the holidays I have managed to end up a bigger size lol. So off Zay and I went to the meeting this morning, I am pleased to say the scales do go up pretty high and that my little support man was just great for the meeting and waiting 25 mins for me to get through the sign up drama!! I also only have 5 weeks till Scrapboxx Retreat yahoo, I love retreats and I am so looking forward to getting away and spending time doing my great love of creating. So I will see how much I can loose in 5 weeks and hopefully some of my really nice clothes will fit me again to take away. So lots of incentive to get rid of the lard and on top of that my health, my poor joints and back and neck have had enough of supporting this lard, I was never this size even in my 4 pregnancies so Mum and I discussed last week supporting each other and joining even though we are doing it a long way from each other and I am sure Kim will jump on board too. So here is to us 3 getting some normal sized bodies!!!
I made tea from my plan tonight and it was yummy, the great thing is the family can pretty much eat and enjoy the meals as well, not like the last plan I tried, I had to cook 2 lots of bloody meals each night and that just gets too hard in the end.
I have had a meeting tonight for Kindy which is all stuff I know from last year with Trin but I did the right thing and heard about it all again. So funny to listen to the Parents and the questions they ask, I think some think they are sending them to the einstein school. Others seem to have issues about starving children and send masses of food in for them. lol. Other than that not much else happening. Busy creating ATC's for scrapbook designs swap and enjoying that and off to watch desperate housewives, back on yahoo, but cant wait for Mcleods and Greys anatomy. yummo. Catch you next time.
Take care
Trace.
Friday, February 02, 2007
Rainee pics.
Hi
A few pics, this one of Zay was Christmas Day when he was sneaking treats hence the "I know nothing" look, too cute sneaky little devil. And the others are Rainee on her 1st kindy Day in her uniform. She looks so grown up.
Mum went home today so I will miss her company and having someone to have a morning and arvo cuppa with. I wish we lived closer, I realise how much I miss her and the kidlets miss and love her dearly. She is tired but and needs to go home and catch up on some quiet time, must be hard living with the 2 of you and then the Grandkids and Family all enter the equation, I know how quiet the house was for the week Mum had the girls and then they came back and suddenly mayhem errupted and we had gotten used to the quiet.
Mum dropped Keelan off to his Dad so we have a weekend of 5 of us. Dont know what is on the agenda just yet with the temps being high.
I have hurt my neck and shoulders and find it too hard to sit and scrap ATM how terrible is that. I hope it will be better tomorrow.
Have a great weekend all and stay cool if possible will go and rest this neck.
Take care
Trace.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
Quick post
Hi,
Just a quick drop in to say the start of School is going well, Trin has had a few hiccups with the girls, she has a very catty group and she tends to become a loner sometimes as she gets upset when they are horrible to her, so I will keep an eye out for what is happening. They split the kindy groups and mixed them from last year but she still ended up in the same class as the very catty ones so I hope things will improve for her.
Keelan didnt get the teacher he hoped but he did end up with the quieter year 6's so you cant have them all and he seems okay with it all so far. Rainee wants to get every day and is sad when she finds out she isnt. The home front is a lot quieter with just 2 home. But when they come home from school oh boy Trin is like a freight train of action, she just goes hard till bed getting rid of a heap of steam and Rainee is a free and willing partner to help her as they have been apart all day, cute though that Trin went and found Rainee Wednesday arvo at Kindy to say hello. That is sisterly love for you.
Well off to rest a sore back and neck now and watch not much on the idiot box bring on next week when all the good shows are back on. Post latter with more photos as keep promising.
Take care
Trace.
Just a quick drop in to say the start of School is going well, Trin has had a few hiccups with the girls, she has a very catty group and she tends to become a loner sometimes as she gets upset when they are horrible to her, so I will keep an eye out for what is happening. They split the kindy groups and mixed them from last year but she still ended up in the same class as the very catty ones so I hope things will improve for her.
Keelan didnt get the teacher he hoped but he did end up with the quieter year 6's so you cant have them all and he seems okay with it all so far. Rainee wants to get every day and is sad when she finds out she isnt. The home front is a lot quieter with just 2 home. But when they come home from school oh boy Trin is like a freight train of action, she just goes hard till bed getting rid of a heap of steam and Rainee is a free and willing partner to help her as they have been apart all day, cute though that Trin went and found Rainee Wednesday arvo at Kindy to say hello. That is sisterly love for you.
Well off to rest a sore back and neck now and watch not much on the idiot box bring on next week when all the good shows are back on. Post latter with more photos as keep promising.
Take care
Trace.
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